This true story gives an insight into the beginnings of Qadar's life as a member of a prominent gang in London. His brutally honest account describes the crimes he committed along with fellow gang members and how experiences in his childhood led to this dangerous lifestyle.
It shows how quickly and unexpectedly things can spiral out of control in amongst a world of alcohol, drugs and violence.
If this serves to help young people avoid making the same choices that Qadar made, and their parents making the same mistakes that Qadar's did, then it will have achieved its purpose.
ISBN : 978-1-80074-556-8
Pages : 128
Size : 205x140
Imprint : Olympia Publishers
Firstly, I would like to send my love, apologies and condolences to any victims that feature in my story. I write these words twenty-five years later with no excuses. I possess only empathy, humility, productivity and responsibility.
I was born Qadar Paul Carl Stewart in 1981 in St Bartholomew's Hospital, Smithfield, London.
My father uniquely chose to call me by the Arabic name, Qadar. Uniquely because my father is non-religious, enjoyed alcohol and favoured Arabic names. Little did my father know that he had named me after a biblical text that means ‘divine intervention'. This term will ring true and play a prominent positive role throughout my personal journey of child abuse, gang culture, drug addiction and murder.