Firstly, I would like to send my love, apologies and condolences to any victims that feature in my story. I write these words twenty-five years later with no excuses. I possess only empathy, humility, productivity and responsibility.
I was born Qadar Paul Carl Stewart in 1981 in St Bartholomew's Hospital, Smithfield, London.
My father uniquely chose to call me by the Arabic name, Qadar. Uniquely because my father is non-religious, enjoyed alcohol and favoured Arabic names. Little did my father know that he had named me after a biblical text that means ‘divine intervention'. This term will ring true and play a prominent positive role throughout my personal journey of child abuse, gang culture, drug addiction and murder.